As I approach the last couple of months of my 28th year (yes, you heard me 🙈) I find myself pondering life more and more and looking back upon the changes I have made for the better. For a while now I have toyed with the idea of posting this but I have never managed to get it all out in an articulate manner.
Normally this page is solely devoted to the latest makeup product or to reviewing an event I have attended but today I bring you something entirely different simply because I feel I need to vent! Not sure if this is something you would like to see more of but if it is then comment below.
Now I’m not expecting many people to read this and I’m expecting even less people to care but here goes….
I don’t know if it’s 2017 or the fact I have reached the grand old age of 28 but this year has been profound from the very start (sounds dramatic already, right?).
More and more I have found myself analysing friendships and getting annoyed with people for things like not truely supporting me, not really being the type of friend I want them to be or betraying me in one way or another.
I came to the conclusion when deciding what to do that if I REALLY had to think about it then it wasn’t really a friendship worth saving. I realised that I seemed to have accumulated ‘friends’ especially on social media from previous jobs, uni, school, friends of friends met on nights out etc but were these people really my ‘friends’? Some, I had been friends with for so long that I simply felt I couldn’t not be their friend as we had been through so much and known each other for long. But then I thought about it some more and really that’s not a genuine reason to continue a friendship that’s no longer making you truly happy, is it?!
I’m a sensitive soul (probably a lot moreso than is healthy for me 😂) and I wear my heart on my sleeve. If you annoy me, upset me or treat me badly then I can’t hide it, I just can’t but I will try my damndest so you won’t know! This year I took this to a whole new level and instead of trying to hide it I just told the people involved which I thought would be a much more mature and healthy approach. It’s funny how once you lay it out to people how rubbish they have been as a friend, how defensive they can get. Usually because, the truth hurts. So what did i do? I ended the friendships, deleted them from my social media and got on with my life. Of course I don’t hold a grudge, I just took it upon myself to move on. I’m a firm believer now that some people are only meant to be in your life for a season or a particular reason and you know what…it’s OKAY if once that time has passed that the friendship sort of fizzles out! I don’t do well with drama or confrontation, I just can’t deal with it nor do I have the time for it so the best thing is to give it a chance to work and once that chance is over, move on!
In today’s society we get bogged down in worrying what other people think and for the first time in my life I THINK I have finally reached a point where yes I’m conscious of this but I’m trying to worry about it less and less and personally I’m a much happier person for it.
So if something or someone doesn’t float your boat, set sail to it and get on with your life! I promise you won’t regret it!
You do you!
Thanks for reading,